urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blondstheway2go Alex...duh Alex...duh 2005-11-17T00:29:14Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blondstheway2go:1393 2005-11-17T00:29:14Z 2005-11-17T00:29:14Z I know how it feels to be in juvi.<br />Mental hospitals suck too.<br />It was bad for me.<br />But now my best friend Shavon is in juvi.<br />It sucks even more not being able to call your best friend everyday for no reason.<br />She should be getting out soon tho, today tomorrow or the next, I'm not sure.<br />I'm really hoping they don't make her live back with her dad.<br />I hate him, I truely do.<br />All this crucel shit she's gone through, Is beause of him.<br />If she doesn't go back with him.<br />Because if she doesn't she's living with us.<br />We've tried to adopt her before but her dad wouldn't let us.<br />This time he won't be able to have a say in it :] urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blondstheway2go:1095 2005-11-17T00:24:19Z 2005-11-17T00:24:19Z I don't really know why, but everyday has been getting better and better.<br />Me and my mom have been getting along for a while now...I'm on a roll :)<br />I talk more to the boy i used to like alot.<br />It seems as whenever we start talking alot more, I'm just happy, period.<br />I love when I'm with him, He makes me so happy, It's unbelievable.<br />He's so amazing, I've never met anyone like him.<br />I'm glad were talking way more now, because when we talk more...<br />He always comes out to see me alot.<br />He told me last night on the phone he might come see me next thursday...I'm soo excited.<br />I haven't seen him in so long, when he told me that last night I couldn't stop smiling.<br />He makes me so unbelievably happy. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blondstheway2go:998 2005-11-09T07:09:08Z 2005-11-09T07:09:08Z Today was a good day.<br />I did absolutely nothing.<br />But i dont know why it was so good.<br />I've been talking to this boy...<br />And I find that I like him.<br />Kinda surprising for me...<br />Because after that whole bad experience with one guy,<br />I wasn't attracted to anyone what so ever.<br />I hope this turns out good, I need to forget about the fuck ups. :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blondstheway2go:545 2005-11-08T20:06:53Z 2005-11-08T20:06:53Z Sometimes I think theres nobody out there that understands me.<br />Sometimes I think nobody can ever feel my pain.<br />Sometimes I think theres never gonna be the right guy for me.<br />Ever since my dad passed away, It seems nothing else matters.<br />I just wish it could have been another time.<br />It really kills me that...<br />Every morning, He's not there to give me big hug or say "I love you."<br />It's really hard without him, really.<br />I never thought i could live without him.<br />Sometimes I think of giving up.<br />Because I'm always sad inside, cover it up with a smile.<br />Yeah, I'll be good.<br />But then I think back, and my dad hated seeing me sad.<br />So I think as if he's still here, watching every move I make.<br />Sometimes I call the house, cuz he never used to answer until I went on the answsering machine.<br />The other day I went on it, nobody was there.<br />I don't know why It hurt so bad but, the other day..<br />I just wanted to go and hear the answering machine, hoping someone would pick up. The phone was disconnected.<br />So my sister has my dad's cell phone, she leaves it off and never checks the messages, but you know what's funny, he never used to check them. But I leave him messages, my whole family does, but somehow, his mailbox is never full.<br />Maybe he's checking them in heaven, he finally learned how to do it, and he's hearing everything we have to say to him.<br />I just wish i would have seen him before he went.<br />JUST to say "I love you." urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blondstheway2go:444 2005-04-20T03:08:18Z 2005-04-20T03:08:18Z tessssssssst.