| Juvi sucks. |
[Nov. 16th, 2005|04:24 pm] |
I know how it feels to be in juvi.
Mental hospitals suck too.
It was bad for me.
But now my best friend Shavon is in juvi.
It sucks even more not being able to call your best friend everyday for no reason.
She should be getting out soon tho, today tomorrow or the next, I'm not sure.
I'm really hoping they don't make her live back with her dad.
I hate him, I truely do.
All this crucel shit she's gone through, Is beause of him.
If she doesn't go back with him.
Because if she doesn't she's living with us.
We've tried to adopt her before but her dad wouldn't let us.
This time he won't be able to have a say in it :] |
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| Happy happy happy. |
[Nov. 16th, 2005|04:16 pm] |
I don't really know why, but everyday has been getting better and better.
Me and my mom have been getting along for a while now...I'm on a roll :)
I talk more to the boy i used to like alot.
It seems as whenever we start talking alot more, I'm just happy, period.
I love when I'm with him, He makes me so happy, It's unbelievable.
He's so amazing, I've never met anyone like him.
I'm glad were talking way more now, because when we talk more...
He always comes out to see me alot.
He told me last night on the phone he might come see me next thursday...I'm soo excited.
I haven't seen him in so long, when he told me that last night I couldn't stop smiling.
He makes me so unbelievably happy. |
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| rawr. |
[Nov. 8th, 2005|11:03 pm] |
Today was a good day.
I did absolutely nothing.
But i dont know why it was so good.
I've been talking to this boy...
And I find that I like him.
Kinda surprising for me...
Because after that whole bad experience with one guy,
I wasn't attracted to anyone what so ever.
I hope this turns out good, I need to forget about the fuck ups. :) |
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| Can't take it anymore. |
[Nov. 8th, 2005|12:06 pm] |
Sometimes I think theres nobody out there that understands me.
Sometimes I think nobody can ever feel my pain.
Sometimes I think theres never gonna be the right guy for me.
Ever since my dad passed away, It seems nothing else matters.
I just wish it could have been another time.
It really kills me that...
Every morning, He's not there to give me big hug or say "I love you."
It's really hard without him, really.
I never thought i could live without him.
Sometimes I think of giving up.
Because I'm always sad inside, cover it up with a smile.
Yeah, I'll be good.
But then I think back, and my dad hated seeing me sad.
So I think as if he's still here, watching every move I make.
Sometimes I call the house, cuz he never used to answer until I went on the answsering machine.
The other day I went on it, nobody was there.
I don't know why It hurt so bad but, the other day..
I just wanted to go and hear the answering machine, hoping someone would pick up. The phone was disconnected.
So my sister has my dad's cell phone, she leaves it off and never checks the messages, but you know what's funny, he never used to check them. But I leave him messages, my whole family does, but somehow, his mailbox is never full.
Maybe he's checking them in heaven, he finally learned how to do it, and he's hearing everything we have to say to him.
I just wish i would have seen him before he went.
JUST to say "I love you." |
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